Why I (now) hate holidays
Ok first off not aimed at anyone on here. Second, Smigin ya know I luv ya & even know ya RL so SsOo not aimed at you! I now Hate the Holidays!! I blame this completely on my husband & fatherinlaw! My husband LUVED LUVED halloween (being Pagan & all). I did NOTHING for it this yr besides getting the girls costumes & helping them get ready. NOTHING! I have Hundreds of decorations for Halloween & didnt use a fucking one!!! Even got new stuff & it sat in the damn bags! Thanksgiving was fine but Really tense. Now Christmas is coming & again! I have Done Nothing! My husbands bday was Christmas. Last yr I was in shock. Numb. Just trying to get through one day at the time but what that left me with was this yr. Now. Now I am feeling everything. Now I hate everyone who I mention this to & they say, “Oh you will be fine you were last yr”.
My husband Luved old world Santa’s. I got him a new one every yr. This yr my mother in law got one in memory of him & I got so Pissed!!!! Which I Know is stupid, silly & childish but it was mine & his thing! I always did this for him! She never got one for him before this! Me & the girls always had a special shoppiing trip just to get this for him! I feel like she stompped all over that! Yes silly, childish, stupid & selfish! But Damnit!
So I am struggling through this one day at the time hoping I at least get the damn tree up before Christmas!
2 years ago